People can be affected in different ways depending on the sensitivity of the person. Suicidal thoughts change a person’s energy causing it to be sluggish and heavy around them. When you give up on life, you give up your will to live and this alters your energy. You find the smallest of tasks very difficult and you struggle to get through your day. This causes alternating personalities where you feel like you’re losing control because your thoughts become delusional, your fear paralyzes you, all of which puts pressure on your body causing pain.
- Everyone’s putting responsibility on you
- You are just existing in life
- You wake up not wanting to get out of bed
- You have feelings of hopelessness and despair
- What is the point, life is not worth living
- Nothing is going right for you
- A heavy weight on your chest
- You cannot breathe
- You are suffocating
After effects of suicide:
- The stigma
- Not knowing what happened
- No explanation
- Unanswered questions
- How that person was feeling
- Could you have helped?
You are not in the present and your thoughts are either in the past or the future.
When your thoughts are in the past this opens up suppressed feelings from the past which, when added to the present day situation, alters you on a physical emotional and mental level. As you are going through life when you find yourself in a stressful situation all of the emotions from the past come up and overwhelm you. You don’t have the ability to express how you feel and you completely overreact to the situation. You don’t really understand it yourself which can cause confusion, irritation, moodiness and lack of sleep. You are very aware that other people don’t understand how you feel which makes you feel more isolated.
When your thoughts are in the future you do not exist in the present therefore you cannot see your future. Only by being in the present and having your thoughts in the present can you create your future.
The biggest fear is taking the risk of looking at your life and expressing what you really feel. Only when you no longer fear it, do you begin to live.
You gain strength, courage and confidence when you really stop and look at yourself as a person. Only then can you come into your own and live life to the full in the present.
© Hazel Devine April 2017 – Suicide V.1